I didn't attend school much this week. I'm down with a flu and I paid a tiny visit to the doctor. As much as I hate having to consume medication, I've got not much of a choice anymore. I thank Zahrina for passing her flu bug to me on Monday when I met her and sharing a cup of bubble tea. I always ask for trouble. Even though I'm sick, I refuse to stay home to have a good rest. I refuse to attend school because the thought of going just kills. So instead I met up with Orlando(Shafrin, can you stop changing your name!) for 2 straight days. I am super-de-duper happy. I satisfy my Mee Hoon Kueh cravings, his Happy Soda cravings and settled for a super budget drink from Giant which cost us 0.99cents but tasted awful. Coke for the win! Around evening, he had to leave for training. I didn't like the idea of staying home today and partly is because I am not supposed to be home. If only there was IEP today, I would have attend school. Anyway, I slept till late morning and I was sleep-texting. Met him again in the afternoon. Katong Laksa for lunch. And just spend time before he goes off for training again. I swear I can't wait for the whole competition to be over. Which means more than just a few hours only meet-up. Yay!

Sometimes I wonder: What am I? I look at the stars and feel very small. Just a tiny consciousness. But if I were as tall as a planet, I would still be short in comparison to the universe. I see a person twice my sizeand I feel weak and fragile. But if I were strong and powerful, I would still not be invincible. I see a painting by the hand of a genius and I feel inexperienced and ignorant. But if I were the greatest artist alive, it would not make me love what I do any more or less. I see blood, running from the wound of another. And I feel a chilling fear from deep within. But if I walked this earth with bravery, it would not make things less dangerous. I see a baby, innocent and naive. And I feel cynical and jaded. But if I saw through untainted eyes all my life, it would not make the world a better place. I see a raindrop, tear of the sky and I feel ugly and unsightly. But if I were as beautiful as rain, it would not make me crystal clear inside. There are children with cancer, mothers who lose their babies, people who are worse off than dead. I wonder if I am just lucky or if the world was cruel. But even if the world was kind or if I were dying too, there would still be suffering. I weep all night, I get nightmares, I lose myself thinking of such things. But even if I could right every wrong. If I could run faster or jump higher or be stronger, it would not make me better or happier. With what I have, I'll do what I like and like what I do. Life is good.

I feel your hands in my hair. I feel your breath on my neck. I feel your lips on my lips.I hear you say you love me. I hear you whisper my name. I hear you tell me I'm the only one for you. I hear your breath in my ear. I hear your soft snores as I fall asleep. I see you as I run into your arms. I see your face break through my world of darkness. I see you fight away my fears. I see you wipe away my tears. I smell your cologne as I hold you and hug you. I smell your love as you cuddle me. You are the one that fills all my thoughts. My soul, soothed. My heart, healed. My mind, mended. I have found love. Love is you.