Date : Friday, June 19, 2009
Time : 10:12 PM
Title : Eat, Sleep, Repeat.

I really do not know why but I don't like the idea of going out too often this break. Unless it's something really important or something that needs to be done and settled. 5 Days down and tomorrow is the weekend. But I certainly love the idea of staying home, facing my laptop screen and click click click, kachingsxzxzs gone. I mean online shopping. Having more afternoon naps and then unable to get good rest at night, typical routine. Waking up in the middle of the night and finding hard to sleep back, all time favourite habit. Parents = Airport. Home alone. I really want to make a call but it seems like I can't. I don't know what's the word to describe myself. Depressed? Sad? I don't know. (Throws pillow everywhere) Definitely not in a good mood.

I refuse to pay a visit to the doctor because I despise the idea of having to consume tons of medications plus it's the holidays, so I do not need to get a medical certificate for myself. Lately, I've been visiting the doctor on a very regular basis which shows how unhealthy my lifestyle is. It's been awhile since I do some running around my estate or just go for a weekend cycling with my father. I popped in Panadols after Panadols hoping for the fever to run down. My head weighs a ton early this afternoon and sure I was not in my best mood ever. I could not decide whether I should blame it on my headache or I'm just having Premenstrual syndrome which is causing me physical, psychological and emotional symptoms. I really wish I could sleep for long but my mind was being a nuisance. An elephant must have been sitting on my head all day long. I seriously wonder why Panadol isn't taking much effect to me any longer. Maybe it is because I've been taking them way too often which includes the slightest headache. You know what sounds good now? Swimming and Tong Seng's Fried Fish Soup with Milk.

Being a lady ain't an easy job. Having to go through all these at certain time of the month just annoys us. I'm sure there's a handful of you that's agreeing to this statement. I hate it whenever I feel bloated and as if I put on 5KG. I hate the part when the cramps are doing their job. Mind me, but the breast will like start swelling and hurt so much at the same time. At times I start thinking of Breast Cancer. I scare myself way too much, I know. At times I get stress for nothing. Anxiety. The trouble to fall asleep just like people who suffers from insomnia. You can blame that on the cramps. Get the link? My whole body will ache like no one's business. My all time enemy, headache and the lack of strength to do anything. It's like as though I am confined to bed. Last but not least, mood swings.