Allure

I Bleed To Know You're Alive.

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Title : Ooogly people in real life

I woke up early just to attend LPD lesson and was so disappointed to find out that it was cancelled when I was already walking to school with Zahrina. We just basically killed 1 hour in the class with a few other classmates talking about Airports and anything random while the rest of the class was at the canteen for breakfast? Design lesson has always been boring. I was trying to figure out the way to sing Monster by The Automatic but again I failed. So I went to Youtube which took ages to load and just gave up. Break. IEP lesson was the beginning of something big. So I saw the Proposal File for the first time. I thank God that our event is accepted which means ticket sales will start in a day or two time. I'm happy. But people always have their ways to make others upset. Their life is miserable enough and they just don't want to see people around them to be happy.

So I thought of clearing things out with her. Because it seems like she has some issues with me. But this girl can just lie and lie and make up stories. If you think I am accusing you, think twice. Maybe more if you really don't get it. I talked to you nicely but it seems like you don't respect me at all. You were taking it so lightly as if nothing is wrong. I took the initiative to approach to you and talk it out but you just cover it all with lies until I had to name names who told me what's going on. And still you continue to lie! I'm impressed at how you can talk so much about stuffs that are untrue. I questioned you nicely and you treat everything like a joke to you. You want a joke, I give you one. You'll be the joke. You are the joke. You can lie to many, but you can't lie to me. If you hate me so much and have personal issues with me, tell me straight to my face. Don't be a hypocrite. You simply just don't appreciate my sincerity all these while. I make people around you think that you are actually good person and this shit is what I get in return. Girl, I think you need help. And you dare to say you have got no issues with me. You tell people about it. How can it not be an issue? My goodness, you can lie and lie. And every lie you say is all visible. I suggest you learn the arts of lying before executing a lie. Because I wasn't born yesterday. I never ever thought a person like you would bring in personal issues into the group project because that is not professional but you just had to begin with it. You start it, you ask for it. All these while I keep quiet. But if you are stepping on my head every single time, you don't expect me to just leave you and say "Oh girl, it's okay. I still love you". Piece of crap. You are playing the nice one right? Trying so hard girl. Someday you'll fall hard. I really wanted to clear things out with you but with those body language you gave me, I think you're just a waste of my time. I hear so much negative stuffs about you yet I accepted you in. I convinced people that you're a team-player. If there's a mistake I made, it'll be to tell people how good you are. You just take things for granted. It's just so upsetting. I respected you even when the whole class turns their back at you. I listened to your problems. And yet you do this. Forget it, I don't need people who doesn't know how to appreciate things and people around them. You start the game girl, I just participate and enjoy the game you've created.

I just realize that I can't turn to anyone for help because it's just not possible. When I ask for help, they'll either try to run away to protect themselves or being plain dumb. I dislike all these people. Tell a story and when asked they'll twist the story or whatever. It's so disappointing. All I can conclude is that you're lying. I'm sorry, but that's my opinion. If you did not lie, just say it. Is that so hard to ask for? It's like as if I'm asking you to give me a million bucks. It's as if your mouth weighs 1000000000kg that you can't open and talk. It annoys me just as much. The least you could do is say "yes" or "no"

I am definitely not perfect but at least appreciate and help people when they are in need and tells the truth. I simply can't understand why such people exist. I just have to ask God why. Who do I tun to?

Natasha Santamaria

Am Eurasian. Mom, Chinese. Dad, Eurasian. Love messy hair. Am a student of ITE College Central (Bishan Campus) - Event Management. Coke addict. I strongly believe that the world you desire can be won. It does exists. So does your true love. You just got to fight for it.

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