Allure

I Bleed To Know You're Alive.

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Title : i will take a bomb and plant it to your faces

Let's talk about my working Sunday. Maybe not so much about it because it was all good. It feels very peaceful today. No rush and things were all smooth. I had chats with Zahrina quite often. Or maybe you can call it bitching. But it was all good. I don't really like the food served. The only acceptable thing was basically the cold-fruit-punch-which-is-tasteless. All because it tasted like plain ice water. Oh well, but time was taking it's own sweet time. Maybe wearing a watch to work is a bad idea. I constantly take notice of the time and to realize that only a few minutes passes by is depressing enough. Songs being played were bad, I could fall asleep anytime. It was a very religious event. Something new though. Work ended.

Anyway, I don't know if whatever I'm going to type is going to offend anyone or anything in one way or another but I just have to do some anger management or whatever you people call it because I'm pretty much annoyed, disappointed and I'm starting to go into my “grrrrr”, “rawrrrrrrr” and “arghhhh” mode.

I was informed that a person is not happy with me because I did not do my part as a team member. I would like to find out more about this. Definitely. Hearing from what is being said is that I, Natasha did not do any parts that I am supposed to do. Are you kidding me? If you think I'm going to keep quiet, I ain't going to do it this time round. Try me.

I was told that I did not do my work/part and jolly well met my boyfriend even when I was sick. You know what? Firstly, mind your own business. Secondly if you really care so much about my life business and all, maybe you should get things clear and get the full story. That's something I like to suggest. And yes I did find time to meet my boyfriend, because it's my life. I choose what I want to do and where I want to go. I've done my part, just so you know. I just need a break from school and I was really unwell. At least I have someone here to take care of me when I'm feeling ill. I thank God for it. I don't blame you for this but I blame someone else that make it sound like I did nothing and skipped school. I've been committed since Day 1 for your information.

For God sake haven't we talked about your part. Haven't all of us been informed? And you happily did something I/we already told you not to. You know why you say you're committed, because yes you're typing words but for the wrong thing and purpose. It's as if you're doing something but for the wrong reasons.. So, get things right. GTH!

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Title : before goodnight

You are so special to me. You are the reason I breathe. The reason I wake up every morning and smile, because I know you Love me. You make me feel so alive. You are the pulse in my heart. That smile of yours is so precious to me, it makes my heart jump. And I'm willing to do anything it takes to make you happy. I need you in my life and I know I will always have you. The air I that keeps me alive and the sun that brightens my day. Not Loving you is something I just won't and can't do. Because you are so special to me. You are the cause of my smiles. You are the reason I breathe.

Xo.

Natasha Santamaria

Am Eurasian. Mom, Chinese. Dad, Eurasian. Love messy hair. Am a student of ITE College Central (Bishan Campus) - Event Management. Coke addict. I strongly believe that the world you desire can be won. It does exists. So does your true love. You just got to fight for it.

♥