I Bleed To Know You're Alive.
Date : Saturday, June 13, 2009
Time : 10:09 PM
Title : As I wait for your call or text :'(



I lie awake with tears in my eyes, my heart is aching and I can only think of you. Longing for your touch, can't feel it. Longing for the sound of your voice, can’t hear it. The wanting of you conquers my heart, the thoughts of how good it was to have you near beside me every day and night. Thinking about your smile. Wishing to hear you laugh. My heart grows stronger, whenever I miss you. It's 10:09PM and I'm missing you as the night slowly covers the sky. And everyone starts to fall asleep, while softly singing to their lullaby. But I cannot fall asleep. Cause you're missing. And though I talk to you earlier this morning, that's hours ago. I feel so cold without your arms. This blanket just won't do and the white siberian tiger soft toy you gave me which I use to sleep with does no justice. So everyone else drifts off to sleep to get lost in dream. while I lie awake cause, like it or not, I just can't sleep without you. Missing you so much. Everyday when you are not around, my heart aches even more. You make me feel so good. But I miss you so bad. I'd do anything to see you. Anything in the world. Right now all I want, is to be with you. There are days when I cry myself to sleep. Missing you so badly. There I was laying on the bed, a tear escaped my eye and I began to cry. I wish your arms were around me. Wanting to be able to turn over and see your face.

I sit here at home. Wondering how things are going. Wondering how you are doing. Wishing I could be there by your side. I miss your voice, which soothed me when I was scared. I miss your touch, which held me tight through the night. I miss your eyes which held love only for me. I miss your ears, which listened to every word I spoke. I miss your kisses, which were gentle across my skin. Sweet as heaven itself. Most of all, I miss you. You're all I ever wanted. All I ever needed. When will you come home? I worry about you. When you're away.

My tears are running, needlessly, down my cheeks. All because I'm missing you.




  • Natasha Santamaria

  • Am Eurasian. Mom, Chinese. Dad, Eurasian. Love messy hair. Am a student of ITE College Central (Bishan Campus) - Event Management. Coke addict. I strongly believe that the world you desire can be won. It does exists. So does your true love. You just got to fight for it.


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