Date : Monday, June 29, 2009
Time : 10:38 PM
Title : Just like the stars in heaven.

Oh how fast time flies and soon I'll be old and saggy, with wrinkles on my face. + suffering from osteoporosis or something along the way. Soon I've lived on this earth for 19 years. I asked myself what has life taught me. I asked myself if I have learn all my mistakes. I asked myself how many regrets I have made for the past few years. Sometimes I find myself feeling so down with full of regrets, be it family, friends or anything. But I realized that all these regretted choices I've made is why I am the person I am today. It's why I'm leading this life of mine every single day. And there's nothing more I could ever ask for. There has always been ups and downs. I believe that is what that makes me a stronger person. I know I'm capable of much more.

Every day is a stepping stone, a new chapter of a storybook. A whole new situation, a lot different from my yesterdays. I spend time to think about my past, present and future. My past is a history. Though every single bits and pieces makes life meaningful. People that come and go. An object that reminds you of something. Without you knowing, your past still lives in you. I recall my past pretty well. From Primary School all the way up. Friendship was made. Some choose to stay, some choose to go. Some I rather stay away. Some I just want to avoid. But some, I just cherish them so much that they are still with me. I thank God for people I've made friends or enemies with. Each have thought me what life is. Each made a difference and create an everlasting impact I will never forget.

And here I am, today. My present. I reminisce the past. I remember how things went. Some were right and some were just wrong. Taking mistakes as a learning lesson, I lead my life. Appreciating people and things around me much more. Because like I say, people come and go. Who would ever expected Michael Jackson to die? I myself did not expect my Grandfather to leave my life when I was still young. I put a smile on my face whenever I could. Hoping to make others smile along. A smile could bright up someone's bad day. A laugh could make someone feels better. You never know what impact you have made on others. And you'll be shock to know if they appreciate it as much. Today, I am stronger than yesterday. Each day, I grow stronger. I thank God at the end of every single day for everything because tomorrow is still uncertain.

Future. When I was about the age of 7, I wanted to be a Teacher. Then I wanted to be an Actress. Then I wanted to work in the bank. Then I wanted to be a Policewoman. Then I wanted to marry a rich fella and just enjoy life. What do I know about life back then, compared to now? I never expected myself to study Event Management. I can't say if I want to work in the event industry. I have got no idea. What do I do after I accomplished everything? What will everything be at the age of 25? Do I still own the things I have? Do the people around me now exist in the future? Or will they turn back and walk away from your life and into another path? What will the next second be like?